Has there ever been a moment where you feel like a complete failure as a mom? I’m raising my hand high. And waving it all around. I feel this way weekly.
I was that mom irritated and losing her patience with a two and a half year old for acting like a normal two and a half year old.
I was that mom who felt like screaming at her one year old who couldn’t be comforted when teething…while out in public.
And I was also that mom who had the panic attack in the car on the way home because she knew she had failed her kids that day. Did I mention that all happened before noon one day?
I went to bed that night worrying if my children would grow up to know how much – in the midst of my anxiety – just how loved they are. That my anxiety that presents as yelling and frustration isn’t a reflection of them, but of me.
Satan sure does like to stand by and use those situations to pick us apart and tear us down. But what I’m learning is that I don’t want my kids to feel like they are the irritants in my life. I don’t want them to go to bed at night wondering why mommy is always so tired and yelling. It’s a daily struggle, and I’m sure you’ve been there; I’d bet my money on it.
One way I connect with God – especially during these trying times – is through music. He speaks truth to me through song lyrics and reminds me that I am His.
Maybe you have a playlist you go to in those situations. If not, here are some songs you can download to listen to whenever you feel inadequate or like you are failing.
Who You Say I Am by Hillsong Worship
You Say by Lauren Daigle
Reckless Love by Cory Asbury
Sinking Deep by Hillsong Young & Free
Sons & Daughters by North Point Insideout (feat. Brett Stanfill)
I Fall by North Point Insideout (feat. Seth Condrey)
I highly recommend creating your own playlist of songs for when you need some truth. I call mine “Tough Day”. Because sometimes you just need those reminders that I’m not a failure even when I feel like one.
Moms, it is so easy to believe the lies that we aren’t good enough for our children. But as I continue to learn how to parent, God is reminding me that He purposefully chose me to be the mom to my two boys. ME. Not some other mom who looks like she’s got it all together. And the same goes for you, too. He chose YOU to be he mom to your children. How amazing is that truth?
What are some songs you love to listen to when you are having a tough day in motherhood? Let me know in the comments!